Sorry that I haven't been posting as frequently. I have been busy at work, getting over a cold and just busy when I get home to get to the computer to really post. Most of you may be wondering what happened at my three appointments on Thursday. Well, two out of three of them went well...
First appointment was with the Gynecologist Oncologist or gynoc. The appointment started off well enough. I went in and we started discussing the oophorectomy. Somewhere
during our discussion the appointment went
from a consultation to a pre-op appointment.
The doctor left and told me she wanted to
examine me and to get undressed. Then she
came back in and looked at me and did a pap
test and more. Then she left and said we'll
discuss more of the surgery when she
returned. But before she returned, her nurse
came in with a tray full of blood. I said
what are those tests for? She said she
didn't know and said she could go and ask. I
said yes because I didn't want to give blood
without knowing. She left and then came back
in. Turns out she was getting blood for
pre-op stuff. I said, no. I didn't want to
give any blood through my port because I was
going to be talking to my other surgeons and
they might want some other tests done and I
didn't want my port accessed twice in one
day. Hell no. Then I just broke down in
tears because it was happening all so fast
and the doctor didn't even tell me what the
hell was going on. She had disappeared and
said she'd be back to talk about the
surgery. I figured we'd talk more about what
went on and ask more questions. At that time
the doctor came back in and I asked her what
was going on. I said I came in for a
consultation and where did this turn into
something else? She replied that "You seemed
certain that you wanted the surgery so I
went ahead and made this into a pre-op
appointment." I said, "Where did that
change?" I told her I was a planner and I
don't like surprises and I feel like I am
being surprised right now and it doesn't
feel good. It was at that time that she
actually took time to discuss with me the
procedure and what sort of other tests are
she's going to need... blood, ultrasound and
something else. I refused to give blood, so
they set it up that after I meet with the
other surgeons, I can get my blood drawn. We
also talked about if I should get my
mastectomy with immediate reconstruction and
the oophorectomy done at the same time. I
hadn't decided because I hadn't talked to
the other surgeons yet. So after that
discussion, we went through the pre-op
stuff, like the risks and what not. She does
laproscopic surgery. She'll make up to 6
incisions in my abdomen to snip and drag out
the fallopian tubes and the ovaries. Once
they are taken out, they are sent to the lab
to be "staged" - to see if there were any
microscopic cancer cells/tumors. In about
two weeks the results come back. Now
normally if I wasn't BRCA positive, they
would stage in the operating room. But they
want to be certain that everything is okay.
The surgery takes about 2 hours and if I was
doing this as a stand alone surgery, I would
go home the same day. I asked Brad if I was
overreacting about the whole appointment. He
said no, because he thought that this was
going to be a consulation appointment and
not a preoperative appointment. He noticed
that it changed its course with no warning.
I am not sure if I want to go with her. I
may talk with Brooke or Christine about her
because I am not sure if I want to go with
her because of her bedside manner.
Following that disasterous appointment, Brad
and I walked to the Old Spaghetti Factory
for lunch. That was a nice walk... it's
about a mile away if that. We had a nice
lunch and then walked back to OHSU's Center
for Health and Healing for our next two
appointments. We meandered our way back
because we had about an hour to kill.
We got to our appointment about 20 minutes
early and then were led back into a room
about 2.30p. On our way there, I saw Maureen
one of the CNA who works with Dr. Luoh. Then
I passed the nurses station with the
schedulers and Brooke was there. She ran out
to give me a big hug. We talked for just a
moment before we went to the our room. To
make a really long wait short... I wandered
out of the room and up to the nurse's desk
to talk to Brooke. I told her about the
disasterous Gynoc appointment. She and the
scheduler, Sierra, were happy that I stood
up for myself and said No and stopped all
procedures from happening. They said that
many patients don't advocate for themselves
and just go with it. I always try to be in
the know and so that way I am prepared. In
any case, I saw Dr. Pommier, the surgeon who
put in my port while I was chatting with the
ladies. He called me out and asked, "How's
it going Mrs. Rake?" I laughed. Finally
after 3p, I finally got in to see Dr. Naik.
She was finishing up with a patient. She
looked at my boobs and was impressed that I
responded so well to treatment. We talked
about surgery and the whole appointment was
driven by me and Brad asking questions. My
first question after she examined me was
"Would you suggest that I be a candidate for
a lumpectomy now - IF I wasn't BRCA
positive?" She said yes. That's all I wanted
to know. I don't want a lumpectomy, I just
wanted to know if I responded well enough to
the treatment where a lumpectomy was a
possibility. I'm still getting a double
mastectomy. I asked how long the surgery
takes... normally 4-5 hours. We discussed
whether we should do an oophorectomy at the
same time. She said that some patients do,
but recovery time is longer. She suggested
that I not do it at the same time. The oophorectomy will have to be done after her surgery, so that would mean I would be under anesthesia for 6 hours at the minimum and that's too long. Good to
know. We talked about drains (a question she
deferred to Dr. Thaker), good clothes to
wear afterwards, pain protocol (narcotics,
she uses IV pain, then changes to pill form
as soon as the patient can handle pills),
port removal (she's going to take out the
port during the surgery - hooray!), is
surgery scheduled for morning or afternoon
(morning). I also asked what kind of lymph
node dissection she will do. She said she
would do an axillary dissection. She will
take out 10-20 nodes depending on how many
are there. Each person has different amounts
of nodes in their body. She said that she
will take out the cluster that was affected
under my arm... and that may be anywhere
between 10-20. I asked about the different
levels of node dissection. She said that
they normally do Level 1 and 2. Level 3 is
where it's deep in the body and she normally
doesn't do those unless she has to. Brad
asked if the incision would be bigger or
smaller now that the tumor has shrunk. She
said that it would be a bit smaller. I asked
how many nights I can expect to be in the
hospital. Dr. Naik said anywhere from 1-2. I
will have the drains in my body 10-14 days.
I will be sore for a couple of weeks. My
next course is another pre-op meeting where
we go over the nitty gritty information and
get waivers of consent. I will need an EKG
and blood work. We asked her about blood
work... which she wants about a week before
the surgery. She said that since my last
treatment was a week ago, my blood counts
will be out of whack. It won't be a true
representation. (Um, then why did the gynoc
want my blood today? She should know that
right after chemo, my blood counts won't be
a true representaton) We said cool. I can't
wait for the next step. Dr. Naik said that I
look good and she can't believe that time
has passed so quickly. I so believe it!
Next we waited for the last surgeon... Dr.
Thaker. She came in and was so upbeat,
energetic and I really like her. She said
that I look great! She remembered the first
meeting and she said that I look so much
better than that meeting. Um, yea. :) Her first question was if I wanted to stay the same size or if I wanted to go bigger. I said, after all this, I want to be bigger. She laughed. She said that we will go with our original plan to do the tissue expanders and then after radiation, we'll switch out the expanders with the implants. Hooray! This appointmet was again driven by Brad and I. We had questions... the surgery will last about 1-3 hours. If all goes according to plan, as soon as Dr. Naik is done with the first breast, she will be called in and she will place the tissue expander under the pectoral muscle. She says usually when she's done with that, Dr. Naik is done with the second breast... so it's sort of a tag team. Wonderful. Less time under. She also uses a product called AlloDerm. AlloDerm is used because the pectoral muscle will not cover the whole expander and it creates sort of a sling. It's made of collogen, so blood flow and cells will begin to take over it. She calls AlloDerm as an empty apartment, and my body just needs to move in! I like her - did I mention that? After the expanders are in place, she will put in some saline so at least I will have little boobs after surgery. She doesn't want to fill them too big because she doesn't want to stretch out the skin and cause bad healing. Apparently when Dr. Naik goes in to do the mastectomy, she takes away a lot of the blood flow, so my skin needs to find new ways to deliver blood to other areas of the skin. I didn't know that. That's interesting. After about two weeks, I will see Dr. Thaker and the injecting the saline in the expanders. She'll start off small and then increase (100mL max). She said that it usually takes about 3 appointments until the desired size or about 4 weeks. Hooray! It's going to be cool because she said that I will be taking my new boobs out for a test drive. I don't have to guess. All I have to do is say "stop" and that will be it! So when I reach my desired size she'll put a little more in to for some "padding" and that will be it. Then I go to radiation and do that. Following that, she waits 3 months to make sure the skin has healed. If my skin does well, then it's on to the implant switch. That surgery will take about 2-3 hours. It is at that time that I think I will do the oophorectomy. Dr. Thaker said that would be fine. I asked about nipple reconstruction. That can be an office procedure at a later date... and tattooing would be done in office as well. I told her that I will be flying in September and since the expanders have metal in them, what happens. She said that she can write a letter stating I have expanders. She said that if I go to some remote area, then they may not take the letter... but she does write letters and says that normally security doesn't ask, nor does it cause problems. She said that when she was going through security at LAX, the security person asked if she had implants. She said, "No, but I have a lot of patients who do. Thanks for asking." I laughed. She said that I will have several drains... the breast and I may have one in the lymph nodes. They will be taken out in the office and held in by a stitch. As for pain management she puts in a pain pump which is a tube that that goes into the breast and numbs it, similar to novicain at the dentists office. It usually lasts about 3-5 days depending on how much I use it. When it's done, I can pull it out at home! Oh yes, she said that Brad can administer the saline into the tissue expander... um, no. She also said that when I am expanding, she will give me some pain medication to take before going to bed. She said that it's more uncomfortable and most people have the pain when they're going to bed and trying to relax. Our next appointment will be a week or so before surgery for the consent form and to go over the actual surgery. Fantastic. She'll also show me what the expanders look like. Oh yes, at a later date, she may take some fat from another part of my body and insert it onto my chest to make the breast look more natural - rather than two cantalopes. Ha. She then showed me pictures of breasts before, tissue expanders and then implants. Looks good! I can't wait.
Holy cow...that is a lot to process. I am so glad you stood up for yourself! You are in our prayers!
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