Ooooh, that title post sends shivers down my spine. Oh wait, that's the AC on! LOL.
Well, I have finally made it to the eve of mastectomy surgery day. Ask me if I am nervous. Answer: of course. I don't want to do this. But I know I have to. I want to live. I want to see my kids grow up and I want to be a grandma. Put my happy face on. Reassure everyone that I am doing okay. I am, really I am. But to some degree I wish it were all over that way we can all focus on something else. I am grateful for all the well wishes, good luck and prayers. It's prayers that I will need most. Pray that the surgery is "run of the mill" and there are no complications. I am not worried about the surgery. I am most worried about serious complications... like a chipped tooth. Yea, that's a hazard of general anesthesia. Honestly, there's a part of me that's worried that I will never wake up. I know that is rare, but it's a thought that bubbles and festers in the back of my mind. But I'll be talking to everyone tomorrow evening.
As for my day today... got up at 3 and got ready for work. Worked until 8.30a and then left to go home. Got home, made a call to Dr. Thakar's office to get my FMLA claim recertified, vacuumed the house, got gas for the car and then made my way to my pre-op appointment with Dr. Naik. The appointment was fast, at least with the doctor. We had to wait and wait for the nurse to come in and go over the particulars of the surgery itself. When she came in, she told me that my surgery was the first of the morning! Hooray. I have to check in tomorrow at 6a. They want me to be in the OR by 7.30. The surgery should take 4-5 hours. After surgery, I will be taken to the recovery room. I'll be there for the next hour to two hours while I wake up from being under. Following that I will be taken to my normal room where I will stay until the pain management is in check and I am strong enough to be discharged. I will meet with Dr. Naik and Dr. Thakar one last time in the morning as well as with the anesthesiologist. Dr. Naik will also be taking out my port. Hooray!
My 12.30 meeting was joke. The only thing I got out of it (it was a pre-anesthesia appointment) was a special body wash. I am supposed to take a shower tonight and use half of the bottle on my skin. Let it stand for one minute and then wash it off. It needs to be applied from my neck down to my toes and not around my gential area because it will sting or make my eyes water. Interesting, eh? What's it for? It's supposed to kill all the bacteria that may be on my body. Interesting. I didn't have to do it when I got my port. Nor did I have to go through this pre-op BS. After showering, I need to put on fresh sleep clothes and sleep in fresh laundered sheets. Then tomorrow morning I have to do it all again. Other than that... that's all I got of that meeting.
After that I raced to get Grammy at the airport. We ran to Costco, picked up the kids and went to Fred Meyer. When I got home, I made dinner, packed, got the kids in the tub, read to Amelia, filled out the rest of my paperwork and am now posting. Phew.
Oh yes, I saw Dr. Luoh today. I was hoping I would because I wanted to say good bye to him. He told me that I would be all right and gave me a big hug. He's a great man. I like him a lot.
So I hope to be online tomorrow... or have Brad do it as I dictate to him... so I can at least say I am still alive. :)
Well... I am off to shower. Keep me in your prayers. Love you all!
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